Self-reflection is a gazing at one’s life and circumstances as though it

were a painting to be examined, felt, appreciated.  In self-reflection the 

third or inner eye is opened, and one gazes at one’s life to learn, appraise


-Wilson Van Susen

You know more about you than anyone…you scripted, produced and directed your epics through your time continuum….  Only you know the facts, if you are willing to become the observer and look from above the emotional attachments or bands to the past, you will detach and create your opportunity to heal and release the  issues no longer relevant to this life or those ahead of you.  Don’t be mistaken, you will create future lives.  How you choose to create them is up to you, newness or same old, same old.

The old programs say… “someone else can fix you”, “know more about you”, “has the glue to put you back together”.  This is the band-aid version of “fixing you outside your Self” programming. You cannot shift anything until you are willing to accept every aspect of self from your core cellular level to the surface of your body.  The shift occurs at the moment of acceptance… “To Do” is the manipulated Ego…To Be is acceptance so you can move on from the limitations, definitions, and labels.  Ask your Self, are you worth it or do the labels and definitions have more value than you?  If they do, be prepared to play yourself forward/backward…and the beat goes on!  Nah nah nah nah nah nah.  Don’t you just love your Childish Adult Ego?!  Much, much too painful!  If you really like living in the victim role then by all means have at it…do it again!

If by clear choice you choose your Self out of the labels and definitions…then what? Then the molecules of your strings, bands or strands of information begin to erase and you change the consciousness written on them that no longer serves you. You are consciously “throwing away” the food of consciousness or garbage upon which you have been feeding.  Remember, again, in the Lord’s Prayer, “give us this day our daily bread”.  You can stop eating the garbage and feed your Self the gourmet food of your higher consciousness.

Don’t you deserve it?  Oops, you wouldn’t consider going back to the garbage dump, would you?  Just checking!  As this process progresses, total recall as cellular memory begins to rise to the surface.  As the observer you begin to see without the fearful Childish Adult Ego, the magnificence of all of your creations through your lifetimes. On each of your bands of energy, the information of your experiences are encoded and imprinted.

All of this information is about your experiences that you so grandly wrote in your lifetimes.  This “Now” time is your opportunity to access this information, retain it if it is viable to this life or discard it. The purpose of utilizing this information is to purposefully empower your Self to become conscious in this lifetime.  You have the choice.  Remember…once you choose to become aware, you can’t go back to the programming.  However “should” you choose to stay unconscious and give your power away outside of your Self, “playing at denial”, “staying a victim or victimizer”, or reliving old patterns, be prepared to relive your trauma dramas.  You do have a choice of how you play your lives forward.

Are you willing to waste one more moment or lifetime reliving non-productive, time consuming karmic, repeated lesson filled, boring, illusional/delusional agendas for your Childish Adult Ego to prove you right and then wrong.  What a roller coaster of limited consciousness.  You served your time, now it is your opportunity for time to serve you.  Take your free “get out of jail” card and use it. “Jail” is a consciousness stored in your cells. “Jail” is a narrow band of fear consciousness.  Whatever your perception of what “Jail” means to you!

Your imprisonment through the Fear Programs is always created by you.  Now don’t get upset.  You did it unconsciously.  Remember… becoming conscious is to be the observer of ALL that you created and manifested in to your physical world.  You did everything perfectly.  You are the only one that can let you out of your “Jailed” cells.

Even your Childish Adult Ego begins to transcend the programming.  It has no choice, because in your physical body through your ascension and expansion of awareness called “Becoming Conscious”, you are integrating all your levels of your being.  This includes your Childish Adult Ego.  What did you “think” will happen to your Childish Adult Ego?  “Remember your Childish Adult Ego will do anything to survive, even kill you because it knows you will come back”.  Your Childish Adult Ego keeps you in the recycling bin or box of karma, lessons, and your “B”elief “S”ystems!

Do you not see how brilliant your Childish Adult Ego is?  You have brought your Self to this place, time and space for this opportunity to kick your old Base/First  Chakra open and get out of the box.  “Butt” if you choose to continue the programs of fear located in your First Chakra…have at it!  Whatever you do it will be either divine order or disorder.  The choice is up to you.  By the way, stop blaming your Childish Adult Ego for all your troubles and trauma dramas.  While you were miserable and emotionally challenged your Childish Adult Ego had to live through your scripts.

And you “think” YOU were the only one suffering!  Your pure Child Within also was challenged.  Your pure Child Within had to WAIT each lifetime knowing it would be sliding down a tunnel of forgetting called the birthing canal, wondering if this was the lifetime you were willing to get conscious.  You come in through a tunnel and you go out through a tunnel.  You pick the parents for your issues through the biology, the DNA, and the conditioning.  You made the contract with them.  Did you forget to read the fine print?  Big deal…you didn’t even notice the big print!  Yes, you did.  Big deal!

The perfect lifetime has arrived.  It is here and now.  As you clear give some divine thought of how you would write your next life into being.  Hey, what a concept!  This is just a morsel or tidbit of a new food of consciousness to come.  However, not to digress let’s get back to this lifetime and look at what you can do to clear out the no longer relevant part of the past and use the experiences  of the past that will serve you now to enhance your life.

Heaven on Earth is within you.  The heaven does not have to be created.  Heaven  is already a part of your physicality.  Heaven is the quantum field within you.  Your quantum field is the clear dimension devoid of the molecules of emotions without the Fear Programs and the emotional hooks (the strings or bands of energy) attached to your past trauma dramas, victimizations and conditioning.  Your quantum field is a band of consciousness of total unconditional love and creativity.   Your energy is the power source that propels your quantum consciousness into your reality.  The real you is not the delusional, illusional reality of the programming and the manifestation of your life through fears.

Newness cannot be a realization until you are creating from your quantum field, it is that simple. And it is simple. As long as you and everyone on this planet continue to create through the Fear Programs, the conditioning of these Fears and the decision to remain manipulated and unconscious, your Third Dimensional Duality creative process simply continues.  Different time, different places, same old, same old war.

The Duality principle of war speaks volumes of dialog of the Lack Program!  The war on poverty conveys the message of Lack. It is the physical properties of the “haves and have-nots”.  The reality of this planet is filled with abundance.  The mentality and the reasoning of the Duality computer brain says you or the  group lacks  something.  How could anything else be manifested except a reality of “something lacking”.

There are many aspects to the Lack Mentality.  In Duality, the war on poverty provides the “haves” with a temporary emotional “hit” of helping.  Look through history of this planet…where has the war on poverty been ended.  Name the place, name that tune.  It is time to tune-in to what is really going on.  Comprehend, this is not a statement of judgment.  Where has starvation ended, be it physical starvation or the physical, emotional drain of lacking something.

For the have-nots, it is a temporary hit of feeding someone’s physical and emotional starvation.  The issue is that the war on poverty is supported by the Lack Program,  spinning this wheel  of reality around and around in the same place regardless of the age and stage of linear Earth time. Where’s the spin doctor on this one? The Lack Program is poverty at its best and worst of Duality.

One of the main reasons that the war on poverty continues is the Duality Consciousness. Someone or some group “must” be the haves and someone or the other group “must” be the have-nots.  The war on poverty, as every war, whatever it is called, is the war of the Childish Adult Egos… governments, religious groups, or controlling parties who want to “own” the reality of another group. It is very easy to control someone or a group through the distribution of Belief Systems using food.

Remember when you eat the food of consciousness that doesn’t serve you, do you believe it is serving someone else?  This is not to judge that helping someone is wrong.  The question is HOW does the help work.  Is it based on a  temporary handout accompanied by a temporary emotional “hit” or can you help someone by changing your own consciousness from the fear of lack to a new  reality of abundance for all. 

Even Duality’s consciousness of wealth is predicated on some form or variation of the Lack Program.  Unless you recognize that lack is a limited thought and a Belief System of consciousness, nothing changes.  Whatever the consciousness is… is whatever is manifested as the reality!  Get it! The reality of consciousness that poverty is a war, ask your Self who is the winner and who is the loser in this kind of war?  The winner is the loser, because there can be no abundance and prosperity. In this reality the loser-winner never ever has enough product, services, or resources for the losers.  The losers never win because they are afraid that the winners will never have enough to support their lack. And they never do.  Lack begets lack.  It is a lose, lose situation and everyone wins LACK.  WOW… what a consciousness and dysfunctional use of your energy!!!

Hmmm!  Could the Lack consciousness be the key to addictions; the victim-victimizer, the abuser-abusee, the “I’m not worthy”, the “poor me” behavior and the manifestation of all the emotional issues that are prevalent in our society?   Remember the programs run deep in the cellular level of everyone. The programs are embedded in your unconsciousness, not just your sub-conscious.

The Fear Programs of Judgment, Lack, and Take Away affect you and everyone on a daily basis, aware of them or not.  Your creative process is therefore affected by your emotional attachments to these programs that have been imprinted at the cellular level, as events, situations, and experiences.

Because you are not aware, you live a reality of emotional “hits” every day.  When things are going wrong because of the Lack Program unconsciously embedded in you, you wait for the ax to fall, and it does over and over again.  In the Lack Program there is greatness of creativity and there are the great “axes” of the Take Away Program.  This is why a stable consciousness of prosperity and abundance cannot be maintained, whether you as an individual, or as a participant in a group.

This consciousness will always re-create the cycle of some type of war.  The war on drugs, the great wars, the war on poverty, the war with internal demons, the war of the worlds, whatever the war, is simply a consciousness, which determines  the cycles of having, not-having, having, not-having and the beat of the winner/loser goes on.  Whomever becomes the winner can only hold this frequency of consciousness temporarily.  Because, along comes the ax and the winner becomes the loser.  It doesn’t matter.  This consciousness affects everyone…individuals, special interest groups, governments and nations…everyone!  Location and time has nothing to do with it.

The waste of time is by your Childish Adult Ego and the Childish Adult Egos of the group consciousness.  Only in Third Dimension is there a waste of time.  Is it worth your life to waste precious creative moments waiting for something to happen?  Why not use your moments to create something to happen consciously.

In truth there is No Time.  There is only a reference to an experience.  When the reference of the experience is connected to your emotional bands of energy, the scenario of the experience is played out over and over again.  These bands, embedded with your molecules of emotions, are like rubber bands.  You stretch them to the maximum level of the band, stressed out to the max.  Then you snap right back to that place and time and re-live the experience over and over again.

This is the dynamics of the Third Dimensional Duality Reality.  As you live through these experiences, they become the embedded patterns or the design of your fabric in which you re-live your history.  There are no new creations, no options, no choices, just instant replays regardless of the time, date, space or place in your continuum.

Ask your Self…are you willing, or is it worth your vital life force and your creativity, to re-live your old experiences when they no longer serve you?  You can waste, at a cost of your life, the value of your creativity.  You can waste your future lifetimes by dragging your bands of the trauma dramas with you.  You can spend years in therapy, talking and thinking the same issues over and over again right into the next lifetime.  Or you can become your observer, sort through your bands of information, keep what is beneficial and delete the rest. What a concept… unraveling your fabric and creating your own patterns without the dysfunctional programming is up to you.  Again, your choices are up to you.

You are the only one who can create your options or your limitations.   You are the power source.  In the shift of consciousness from your cellular level, your energy field is then driven by your new consciousness.  The Old version of your Duality Consciousness always makes something wrong with you! You “need to be fixed”.

The new focus is to “get to the why”.  The why is the reason or origination point of the issue at your cellular level.  The “what” is the situations, illnesses, dysfunctions, or the whatever you created through the old programming.  You know what they are.  Remember, the old should’s, where you should on your Self so many, many times.  It is just like a revival meeting.  You keep reviving what you already met

before.  Get over it!  Stop “shoulding” on your Self.  Move on to newness!

So, you want to ascend?  What the heck does that mean? If ascension is death, and going to Heaven, then why do you come back so many times?   If you still believe ascension is going out of body, then why are you still here, waiting around, struggling over and over again?  Get a clue!  Ascension is not dying, ascension is living.  But not existing through the Fear Programs of Duality.  Ascension is consciously creating your Heaven on Earth CLEARLY AND DELIBERATELY WITHOUT ALL THE LIMITATIONS OF FEAR!
Ascension begins the minute you start to become the observer from a more expanded point of view above the limited vision of the Childish Adult Ego.   The process of ascension is not going out of body to experience the higher vibrations and frequencies.  Ascension is being the resonance of your own highest vibration and frequencies in this current body.  It is applying your expansion of consciousness to this life, in this world in very “real” and “practical” ways in the routine of your every day life!

Why is this process different?  There are a million methodologies throughout the ages and stages of linear time that all say that your higher self is the “God” within you.  However… and the however is…that there is always an authority out there with more power than you.  The religions, through their rituals provide your soul  with a go between you and “God”.  The reason is “they know” more about “how God works” than you.  The metaphysical gurus, through their rituals provide the way for your spirit to get to “God”.

Even governments control your access to “God” by determining which religious faction is acceptable for their populace.  Religious orders looking for numbers and revenue claim “they” have your answers to God.  Even some groups who profess to be anti-God, claim they have the answers for you.  How Third Dimensional this is that all these groups have your answers.  Isn’t that just the way of Duality Reality!  Ask your Self, what’s real about God for you?  Remember…you ARE GOD.  Aren’t you real?

In Third Dimensional Duality Reality there certainly are a lot of claims.  They are claiming you, as though a piece of property for your revenue.  They claim to have the ability to “save your soul”.  “They”, whomever the “they” is, are banking that you will give up your power and your God within you to them.  This is called control and manipulation. Hello!  Just keep sending your revenue with the delusion you will buy your Self into some illusional heaven.  Religious programs for sale or rent!  Are you selling or renting your Self?

Now don’t get excited or distraught.  This is not to attack or judge your Belief Systems.  However, are your Belief Systems really yours or are they simply  conditioned into you that God is an entity outside of you!  The chaos through fear that God is outside of you, affects you on a daily basis.  When that chaos is infused by a group consciousness of having the only way to God programming, chaos reigns. Yes, the chaos reigns on your parade to enlightenment.

The religious programming of “being the right way to God” becomes embedded in the bands of the group consciousness in which you participate.  This collective consciousness infused in its “believers” goes on to manifest as the continuous continuum energy force that manifests as war with another group because each group “thinks” and actually believes their way is the only way to God.  Their God is the right and righteous God. The righteous wars of religions continue to destroy life in the name of god! Their purpose, claimed in the name of God is to control and manipulate their members’ emotional molecules.  The manipulating system works perfectly.

Each new generation of members are reliving the original consciousness of the religious wars whenever it began, in whatever century.  How perfect is this scenario of re-living a war through control and manipulation of religious leaders, who have the perfect answer to “God”.  Each generation brings more to the cause.  Then the religious order can perpetuate the disorder of the chaos inside its members.  The real funny part of this is that dead leaders from the past are still leading the living!  So then…the living can kill the opposition.  Is this living religion through death or death living through religion?

Ask your Self, who has the power, the controller or the controllee?  Not so hard to figure out, is it?  Third Dimensional Duality Reality is the frequency and vibration of war.  Get this picture?   It doesn’t matter if it is the war of religions, the war of governments, the war of a group…the war begins inside of you.  The war is inside of every person on this planet because Duality dictates you being in opposition to your Self and to some other person, committee, or group consciousness.

Get it clearly. You are a group consciousness of Belief Systems within your Self. Even as a member of a group consciousness, you bring your collective consciousness to the group through the compatibility of your frequency and vibration.  Fear based vibration and frequency is the law of fear based attraction. You reflect your Self as well as reflecting the consciousness of the groups to which you belong.  The vibration and frequency of your consciousness is the vibration and frequency of the group.  You resonate at the level of your awareness.  That’s the point!

What is inside of you and everyone on this planet is the war.  Duality is war with a capital W!  This is the consciousness of Planet Earth.  The time has come to get over it!  The leaders on this planet, regardless of the groups, love controlling you and everyone else in their membership.  It’s their job and their job security.  They don’t care about your job or your security or even your insecurity.  “They”, whomever the “they” are, just want the membership. They count on this consciousness, to rely on the continuation of their membership from generation to generation.  Now that’s job security!  Leaders come and go, but the Duality consciousness continues to manipulate.

It works “for them”!  It may not be working for you.  But they like working you! Now, begin to ask your Self, why is the war not working for you anymore?  The chaos of the war of Duality inside of you, perpetuated by the myth that God is outside of you, lowers the vibration and frequency of your body’s consciousness.  The results are emotional and physical issues called illness, disease, dysfunctions, and/or disorders.

Whether the issues are diagnosed as emotional or physical, labeled disease or illness, the issues are all physical.  Every part of your body is physical and has a component of physicality.  You cannot in your physical body continue in your continuum to separate your Self from any aspect of your Self.  As long as you continue to see parts of you as not physical and invisible, you will never be “whole”.

Again, every aspect of you is physical. Get over it!   Claim it!  This is who you are, a physical, multi-dimensional HUMAN BEING!  When you begin to make the physical connection on all levels of your consciousness as a unified relationship within your Self, you will begin to recognize and realize that the God within you is also physical.  This is Integration in the most practical and real ways.

You make the connection by experiencing your Self on all your levels and spaces of Self.   Experience is the best teacher.  When the student is ready, the teacher shows up.  You are both the student and the teacher and also the God within you.  The Third Dimensional Duality Reality is physical.  Every dimension of reality seen or not seen within you is physical.  You cannot deny any more that your very essence is physical here on this planet.

Even when you leave this dimension, you are still physical.  Your “dead” body, after all the bands of  consciousness and energy leave, your soul, your spirit, your divine mind, your Childish Adult Ego (healed of the issues or not), your higher self, your God self, every part of you, will weigh less.  What emotional issues you don’t clear in your bands, you take them with you.  You are still physical and you hold on to the physicality of your Third Dimensional issues you haven’t cleared.

Why is that?  Because… you being the cause… you believed in the programs of reincarnation, lessons, and karma.  You believe Earth is a school full of programs.   SOOOOOOO…. you come back and bring back all of your Self and the issues you didn’t clear with you. Let’s do it again! Remember, as an example, if you haven’t cleared abandonment on your way out, you bring it back on your way in. Abandonment is still embedded in your template.  How fun is that!  NOT! Time for you to change the template?  That’s the question!  The point is…You are the answer!

Third Dimensional Duality is the perfect frequency and vibrational field to hold this repetitive consciousness of reality.  Reality check!  Reality check! There is nothing new in this continuing continuous continuum but the same old, same old reincarnation, lessons, and karma.  Is there anything wrong with Third Dimension?  Absolutely not.  It has provided a time space continuum to continue this Duality Illusional Reality.

The only way Duality can be changed for you, is to make a conscious commitment to change your Self.  The Shift within your Self, from the external based Third Dimensional Duality Reality, occurs as you transform to an internal integration of your Self in every molecule of your being .  If you hold on to one molecule of consciousness that makes you less or states you are less, or keeps you in a victim mode of any kind, or keeps you at war with your Self, you will NOT shift.  Experiencing your Self within every space of your consciousness, allowing the connection and embracing the relationship within your Self to every part of you, accepting every aspect of your physicality initiates the shift.  You are the shift and the shiftee!

What dimension you choose is up to you.  Every dimension is inside of you including the dimension of God.  Does it matter what is labeled as the dimensions as 4th, 5th, 6th, or the 30th, or whatever, every dimension is inside of you.  You are the Universal Consciousness of Oneness.  You are remembering your Self with your Self.  Connecting the relationship and the consciousness of all of your spaces within you creates the shift.  There is no one outside of you that can connect your dots, that can change your DNA, that can make you whole, that can heal you…You do it!  And the point is…You are the point!